Babies and Bears

Babies and Bears

This year, my oldest babies would have turned eight years old.

In August of 2016, my twin boys, Matix and Tegan, were stillborn the week before our scheduled induction. My life was forever changed that day, as you can imagine. Through grief, my perspective on life was forced to shift.

I was blessed by an earth-side-angel that day, a volunteer for 'Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep' who took the above photo as well as others of my precious boys.

Just a few months later I also was blessed by the company Molly Bears, who offer special weighted teddy bears to loss parents. My Matix and Tegan bear arrived a few months before Matix and Tegan's first birthday. Holding those bears who's weight matched the birth weights of my boys was cathartic, and I knew they would hold a special place in my family. I always intended the bears to become a physical reminder and even playmates for our other children, and they certainly have become that. When we were finally blessed with our rainbow baby two and a half years later, the bears became an intentional photo-prop for sibling pictures as well.